Randam Adam

So I haven't been doing a lot of updates cause I have been waiting for some new information to come in, so I will just write what I know & what is seriously pissing me off right now.

So after waiting for weeks to hear back tests approvals and such just to be told that there are new rules and only your primary care physician can put in requests I called up my Primary doctor and told them all that the oncologist told me I needed to have done. That was about a week and a half ago. Then I was there last Thursday early in the morning for a check-up I asked the lady at the front desk if they have heard back yet & they then tell me "Oh we have the requests here in your file, they just haven't been faxed out yet. we have been busy" & she said it with an attitude, like I was bothering her. It was at this point that I had to restrain myself from choking the rude lady behind the counter. I HAVE CANCER & your taking your sweet time in getting the requests in for these vitally important tests that could help me start treatment sooner?!?!

So when i saw the doctor I stressed the fact that they have been holding onto these when they should have been out over a week ago! The doctor said that she agreed that this was urgent so she left the examination room and when she came back she said that she talked to he front desk and the requests were being faxed out immediately!

So I called today to check on them and see if they have heard anything yet and somewhere in the conversation she said "You have to give it time, these request just went out on FRIDAY" and I was like "Excuse me? You mean Thursday right?" & she check and told me that the faxes went out Friday afternoon. I was sooo livid I had to hold back the cuss words, I told her that I watched the doctor go over and tell them to fax them asap! I then explained to her that I put those request in over a week before that!

Please pray for me to get some competent people to be working on my case and I also pray that GOD helps me with this anger right now, its probably a defense mechanism that my body is turning to anger instead of fear but at this moment I feel like I could punch a thousand people in the face! Thanks once again for all of your thoughts and prayers!

GOD Bless,
ADP

Lets start this review off with a few facts: I have seen the 1980's film "FAME", I've never seen the FAME tv show . and I generally like most musicals.

Having said that I heard about this re-make well over a year ago and was excited to see how it would turn out. Ive only seen the original movie a few times but I liked a lot about it. So in anticipation for this version I had my friends make me a copy of the soundtrack so I could familiarize myself with the music, been listening to it almost everyday for the past month. So thats gonna inform you on how and why I reviewed it as I'm going to.

So the movie starts off with a bang, right into the rush of the tryouts for everyone that is hopeful to go to this great arts school. This film is just oozing with talent, there are some real up and coming stars I believe in this film. So the movie moves at a decent pace most of the film, but does have some generally slow parts. This version of FAME is more about the true life drama of the characters and what they go thru on this journey and less about the crazy choreographed dance numbers in the street, its more realistic and less hokey then the original. People don't really burst into song while walking and no one around them notice that they are singing. So I think that right there will broaden the audience scope of who will come see this.

The music from the soundtrack is amazing, diversified and fun. The thing about the music in the movie is that there is a lot less of it then there are on the soundtrack.A lot of the songs are just background music as opposed to some one singing them. I was sad that a few of the songs I liked from the soundtrack were reduced to elevator mus-ak. Another problem that I had with the music is that they really didn't incorporate it into the film as much as they should have. One last tidbit about the music is that the title song "FAME" isn't even i the movie!!! Its in the credits, whoever idea that was should be fired and then shot cause its a great song that would have been fun to see onscreen.

Now the acting was great overall and the directing was good. I actually liked the slow motion dance scenes, i thought that they were great. So overall I was dissappointed with this movie but I had extremely high hopes, all of my friends that I went with loved it. So if you like musicals or great singing and dancing then come see this. But you got to be prepared for all of the drama scenes and then you will probably enjoy it more. So until next time GOD Bless and....

I Will See You At The Movies,
ADP

Ok, I just realized that I haven't been on in a few days, but it is the weekend and I'm not really gonna find out anything new. So I'm still waiting to hear about the approvals for the next few tests that need to be done. I'm calling the doctors everyday to check and see if they have heard anything yet, it probably annoys them but I gotta do what I gotta do.

While I'm waiting to hear about the test approvals I gotta use that time to make calls to some of the foundations that Ive heard of and not called yet. I also have to still look into a few things and also I have to do something with Social Security, i sent my application in but apparently somethings missing or they need more info and they e-mailed me about it, I just haven't gotten to it yet. Still a long way to go and a whole lot to do.

On a good note I went out with some great friends last night (Shelly, Marianne & Raslyn)we went to the amazing "GEORGE'S Greek Cafe" on Long Beach and I had the Lamb and it was amazing. If you have never been then u should for sure!

After dinner we went around the corner to the theatre to see "FAME" (movie review will follow) and just had a great night out. Today on the other hand was just an entire day in bed or resting. I haven't been sleeping so the doc gave me sleeping pills and i spent all today in bed and trying to catch up. I even slept thru church (sorry Noelle). But somehow I'm still tired and feel exhausted. I'm hoping and praying that I hear some news tomorrow! I will keep you all informed on what I hear as soon as I do. As always thanks for caring enough to come here and read this.

GOD Bless,
ADP

Well I saw two movies last night so Im just gonna review them together.

I went to an advanced screening of "PANDORUM" last night in LA with my friend Sharyonda. So firstly this movie is just waaaay out there! The concept was original, the special effects were great and there were many cringe worthy moments. This is not a movie for the faint of heart or easily grossed out. There was some bad language & al ot of blood & guts, so don't go see it if you are not a fan of either of those. Ive been waiting for this movie for awhile now and thought that the trailers for it were excellent! This movie is a futuristic sci-fi thriller and I thought it did a great job of keeping the audience guessing and waiting for what will come next. Dennis Quaid, & Ben Foster did great jobs with their parts & were completely believable as space army agents who awake from what was supposed to be a few months of hyper sleep & cant remember anything cause they have been asleep for years. The mystery surrounding what happened to them and the suspense of what happens next kept me thoroughly entertained from start to finish. So if you have liked the little I have said here then go see this movie.

So after watching the screening of "PANDORUM", "SURROGATES" with Bruce Willis was literally starting next door so Sharyonda and I decided to watch it. I will say that I did have a bit of high hopes for this movie, the tv spots and awesome posters they have up everywhere promoting this film did have me intrigued! I would call this movie a futuristic sci-fi detective story, it was very well done and all of the effects were great. I especially love how they made all of the actors look like they were perfect robots when they were using their surrogates. this is basically a story about a future utopia and how things are never as perfect as they seem. Overall I did like his film, there were a few slow parts that had my friend nodding off, but besides that I would say that this was a decent film with an original concept.

So I hope this little bit of information was helpful, i try to not give anything away. So i guess Ill SEE YOU AT THE MOVIES!
ADP

OK, just got the results from the doctor about my PET scan & they said that besides some residue from where they removed the lymph node there were no other indicators of any more cancer anywhere else in my body. Not even the two lymph nodes that were enlarged before and under the one that they had removed.

They still need to do some further testing, but maybe the prayers for healing worked . Its too early 2 tell. But even if not praise GOD that it hasn't spread!

I'm just in shock that the other two didn't even show up as irregular on the scan. I am asking for a copy of the film for a second opinion. I'm still waiting for the approval to see the specialist at UCI & for the next round of tests to be done. But thank you for all of your prayers and I will make sue that I keep updating my blog.

GOD Bless,
ADP

ok, so i made a few calls 2day, but the results of my pet scan aren't in yet, they said that they will be tomorrow. So in the morning I have a appointment with my primary care physician first thing in the morning & then after that I am going to be going to do the blood tests. Ill blog tomorrow and let you know what I find out.
GOD Bless,
ADP

OK, so I went and had the PET scan done today,it was a long and boring procedure,It was over three hours from the time we got there to the time I was finished. So first thing they do is test your blood sugar levels (mine was 91, I was told that the good range is 80-115) So after that She put in shot me full of a few bottles of radioactive liquid. Then I had to lay down in a quiet room for and hour so the substance would go thru my body and latch onto the cancerous cells. After the hour was up the put me into the PET machine and it went back and forth, in and out and then did scans of different parts of me, that was a little over and hour. So thank GOD that is done and they should be faxing the results over to my doctor sometime tomorrow afternoon.

Whats next? Well I talked to Julie out of Dr. Senders office this morning and they want me to get about 20 different blood tests (im not quite sure if they take all of the blood at one time,or what), she also needs me to get my tissue sample from the lab that analyzed it and bring it to UCI,she says they r better trained there and will have a clear cut result asap. They also want me to go get a echo cardiogram (www.www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Echocardiogram ) cause apparently the chemo can cause a strain on the heart and they need to make sure that its all normal and healthy.


So here is the part that threw me a bit, I hadn't heard this until this morning, she asked me to put in a request to get a port-a-cath (www.wikipedia.org/wiki/Portacath ) When I asked what it was and she told me I almost lost it, I was literally fighting back tears in a instant, and I just pushed the wall of tears and fears back into me,so I could ask questions. I'm not sure why that almost made me break down, I guess it was just a shock, and the fact that they need to cut me open and implant a device in my chest to have a place to administer the chemo into my body without having to go thru the vein repeatedly. They say it makes everything easier to administer. I guess at that moment it starts to become real for me.

So I'm waiting to hear the results from the PET test by tomorrow, and then waiting for approval to be treated by Dr. Sender, and the approval for the echocardiogram and the portocath. The Blood work isn't a problem, I have a check up with my P.C.P. on Thurs morning and he will order the blood work. SO please continue to pray that those things get approved asap and I can get to the chemo soon.

So ill continue to update everyday and please if you have any questions, comments or suggestions please leave them and I will address them. Thank you soo much for reading and caring. I truly love you all!


GOD Bless,
ADP
P.S. Thats me in kindergarten and a pic I took at Disney awhile ago.

OK, so another day has come and gone, and Ive been on the phone all day and waiting for call backs. I was told by a doctor that I needed to call MSI myself, and request to be transferred to Dr Sender. I called MSI on Friday and left a message, I also called back this morning and left a message.In the Middle of the day they called me back and after I told them that I wanted to transfer to a different and competent oncologist and they told me that I cannot request it, it has to come from my current doctors (SOOOO FRUSTRATING!!!!!)

So I called my P.C.P. (Primary Care Physician) and told them this and they were telling me that was wrong, I begged them to please put in a request for me and Crissy the front desk nurse is soo awesome she said that she would. I gave them Dr Senders information and she said that they would put a fax out today and hopefully we will hear back soon.

On a separate note After numerous phone calls myself to my oncologist, to the radiology center and also Dr Senders people calling we got my PET scan move to tomorrow!! What is a PETScan you ask? So I'm having it done in Irvine at 12:45 in the afternoon. So I have had to do the same diet as yesterday and after about 3am tomorrow morning I can't eat or anything besides water , sooo fun, a full day of no food! So I'm gonna be doing that and its a few hours total for everything to be done and I am told that all today and tomorrow I need to be resting and relaxing, So ill probably stay in bed most of the day.



So please just prayers for the rest of my tests to get approved asap, that I get approved to see Dr Sender out of UCI and that I can get a clear defined diagnosis of what I have and the stage of it and also that I can start my treatment asap!


Once again, thank you so much for caring enough to read this. Please leave comments or suggestions and I will do an update as soon as I get back from doing the PET scan or if I hear anything further tomorrow beforehand.

GOD Bless,

ADP

OK, Just a quick little blurb since I said that I would be trying to write something everyday.  I am currently getting ready to go to night church and hear Chris Wagner preach, plus I get to see old friends which is just a plus.

  Today was mostly just resting cause although my PET scan is not scheduled until the 28th of September Dr Senders office said that they were gonna try to  see if they could get me approved to move it over from Anaheim Memorial Hospital to UCI and I need to be prepped in case they can squeeze me in tomorrow. So i have to rest all day, cant eat any carbs or breads or starches, so its been meat, beans and veggies for me all day. Then tomorrow I cant eat anything until I know if I'm having the scan or not cause you cant eat six to eight hours prior and thats basically all the prep besides drinking lots of water (which I do normally) and wearing clothes with no metal or zippers at all.

  I am praying that I can get approved to see Dr Sender and be treated by Him and if I do its gonna be a crazy week of testing and getting ready for chemo.

  As of now I don't think I'm gonna be able to do the sperm bank, I just put it into GODS hands and said that if it is his will then he will provide a way for me to get it done, and nothings happened yet and I would have to start tomorrow if I was gonna do it before starting chemo. I just hate the fact that the future fate of my possible kids comes down to money. Man it sucks being poor.

  On a good note I used a free phone upgrade that Ive had available to me for over a year thru T-Mobile,so I will be receiving that phone by Tuesday, and the reason I decided to finally use it cause this phone has an internet plan attached to it, so while I'm in the Hospital or during Chemo or maybe just sick in bed I will be able to update my blog, check e-mails, go on facebook and stay in touch with everybody. I'm really excited about it!

   Well I have to go finish getting ready, so once again I am always grateful to anybody that cares enough to read this and I will do my best to keep updates coming everyday.

                            GOD Bless,
                                           ADP
 P.S. I took this picture a few years ago during a windstorm

Ok, since my last post I have had multiple calls and been in touch with Dr Senders P.A.(Physicians Assistant) Julie and she is awesome and she has a ton of calls out to different hospitals and also to the insurance company. Shes working on getting me approved to see them ASAP, she wants me to get the PET scan done this Monday instead of on Monday Sept 28th, she says that the the doctor also wants me to do some more panels specific to cancer and certain anti-bodies in the blood . Then she wants me to go get the specimen that they took out of me (the enlarged lymph node) and drive it myself to UCI Medical Center to be examined by their own pathologists. I also need to do a CAT scan of my chest and do some heart tests. Julie said that the doctor is highly concerned for my health and well being and wants to get me into see them YESTERDAY! She told me that her and Dr Sender are appalled at the run-around Ive been getting and she said that if everything goes according to plan and they work their magic, best case scenario as long as I get all of the tests done asap, is that i could be starting chemo as soon as Monday Sept 28th!! Julie said that the results from the last surgical (or excisional biopsy) has signs in the tissue that were marked as Burkitts related, but they need to know for sure cause it changes treatment.

They need to find out if i have intermediate lymphoma or the Burkitts because the treatment is different. Now Burkitts is faster growing and definitely more dangerous as in the fact that it can kill someone in the amount of time its been since I found the mass in my groin, but if caught and treated properly it is completely curable with chemo! So the good news is if I have Burkitts, not only is Dr Sender one of the only specialists in Orange County that is really familiar with it and how to treat it, it can be cured, as if its Intermediate Lymphoma then it is less risky right now, cause typically it grows and spreads slower, but it also is a lot less likely to be cured the first time you go thru chemotheraoy and also the chemo treatments go on for longer.


So I'm about to get waaaay personal with you guys! Julie told me that sometimes guys who go through the Burkitts Chemo treatment (or any Chemo for that matter) can become infertile and never have children! So she is referring me to a sperm bank and wants me to start making deposits there on Monday and two more times this week, cause u can't once you start chemotherapy. Here comes the catch , its $250 for them to take and test it and then to keep it frozen for future use, plus there is a yearly storage fee.

Now of course I think I want children, but not anytime soon! I don't think that its even an option for me anytime soon with my condition and financial situation. But do I wanna risk it, its just a chance that it could make me infertile. So what should I do, plus not to mention I don't have the money right now for something like this. SO should I borrow money for this. Its just soo hard cause I haven't met the "one" yet and it would be a lot easier if I could discuss this with her, I mean I'm all for adoption,one of my best friends from high school April, her family adopted two beautiful s Gracie and Ruthy and I've seen the wonderful addition it made to their family.
But i obviously would want to carry on the Poynter gene's. I really just don't know what to do, is a potential child in my far off future something that should be stressing me out now? I guess if I can gather the money or not might be a large factor in my decision. Any thoughts?

Well I'm sure there was more I wanted to tell you, but I'm drawing a blank right now. Please comment and let me know what you think.

Thanks and GOD Bless,
ADP

OK, well i just got back from my oncologists office and I have a lot going on. First of all I was waiting 2 hours in the room to be seen! Then she comes in and asks me why haven't I had the PET scan done and I said "You put in for it to be authorized and I have been waiting for you to tell me that it was" then she told me it was authorized last week and somebody was supposed to call me, that was it, I'm sooo done with her! I deserve the best care, not some second rate doctor that that doesn't return patients calls and doesn't tell you important information that you have been waiting to hear!

On a different note there was some pretty serious stuff going on that I haven't blogged about earlier cause I was awaiting to hear some results. I was told by the oncologist a few weeks ago that the possible strand of Non Hodgkin's B-Cell Lymphoma that came up on the results from the biopsy is a more rare type (Burkitts) that was found and is primarily in Africa in Aboriginal children, and here is the scary part; it is associated with tribes that have born diseases like Hepatitis or HIV (AIDS) so the oncologist had me do some work tests and I just got the results today, and..... I don't have any of the those, it was scary for me cause I have been in the hospital and had multiple surgeries over the past few years and although it was a small chance, there is a possibility that I could have come into contact with ones of the above diseases while in the hospital. So thats a weight off my shoulders!

Now with some more news, I have been taking a very pro-active approach in my cancer. Ive been researching and looking up a lot of things and asking for any and all suggestions . So because of my friend Jay who works for the American Cancer Society and he recommended a Dr. Sender who specializes in lymphoma and is even an expert of the particular strand that I might have. I have been talking to them the last few days and I just got them my medical records and they are looking at them and gonna call me back in a bit. The only main problem is that I need to be authorized to see them and that is a pain in my tookis' !! Dr Senders physicians assistant just called me and wants to talk to him and get me in right away and get some tests done asap cause they feel it is urgent to know precisely what I have and where I have it at.

So I hope to hear some more soon, my PET scan is scheduled for Sept 28th, but they dont want to wait that long for me to have it. So please continue to pray that I can get authorization to see him asap and that maybe somehow I can get the PET scan done sooner!

GOD Bless,
ADP

OK, well i have a lot to say about this movie and not a lot of time to say it, but first my shout outs. I just wanna thank my friends that came tonight: Kathy, Jamie, Cheree, Bo, Donna, Kira, Andrea, Annalisa, Kira's cousin (sorry I forgot your name... The Munchkin) and Andreas mother, It was great to see you all tonight and I really enjoyed your company.

So from the trailer of this movie I got the feeling it was a romantic comedy, with some drama thrown in there. I couldn't have been more wrong, I really liked this movie! Not only was it touching, very funny, but it was witty, original and completely moving. Im not sure if im really just that tired, but i didn't predict every single scene of this movie in advance like i do with so many of the other cookie-cutter movies that are out there today.

I thought that Aaron Eckhart was witty, charming and completely believable and I totally associated with him and his grief. He almost moved me to tears at one point (almost). I loved his character and the almost hidden flaws and how he represents every person, trying to play like your one thing, but secretly hiding your biggest flaws from the world. Now Jennifer Aniston was great opposite him, she really was believable as the flower shop owner and i really liked their chemistry together.

So to sum it up quickly, guys don't not go see this film cause you think its strictly a chick flick, its not. I was moved by the storyline and the subject matter and I definitely recommend this to people of all ages. So I hope you go see this and enjoy...
ADP

Well I finally finished my Medi-Cal application and turned it in today, but here is the thing: when i first went in to get the application a little over a week ago i was told that the application usually takes 30-45 days to get their decision. Well when i was in there today he told me it typically takes 90 days and in certain cases even longer! I am confused on why in a week it has double so that is frustrating and upsetting!

So what i am doing right after blogging is i have to go and finish my online social security application for disability and with that i heard it is typically less then 3 months and if i get approved for that i automatically get Medi-Cal. Please pray that i hear something and soon!

I have been checking into multiple other options and taking all the advice i am gettingand looking into it and also doing research and other things. I cant wait around for some government agency to determine if my life if valuable enough to save. Im a taxpayer and a US citizen damn it and there r people who come to this country illegally and never pay taxes and get covered on the spot! This is ridiculous!! But im not gonna gonegative right now. I gotta challenge this anger, frustration and justcomplete exhaustion into something positive for me.

I took a suggestion from my friend Jay at the American Cancer Society and am checking into getting treated by an excellant oncologist that is local and has great success in treating young peopl with cancer. I put a call into them today and hope to get an appointment soon. So please keep the prayers and suggestions coming, please leave them as comments so ill get emand ill keep you posted on whats going on.

GOD Bless,
ADP

September 16th, 2009 9:12am

Well Ive been thinking a lot lately; about me, my family and my friends. Not just about the "what if's?" I was going thru scrapbooks and finding old photos on the computer that i haven't seen in awhile, photos of: of me as a kid, family vacations, birthday parties, the old high school group SHINE from Calvary Chapel H.B., my early days in the college group at Calvary Chapel WestGrove.
Although a lot of these pictures made me sad, to think about the friends I've lost or have lost touch with and how much I miss some of them and Family members that have passed away. It also brought joy into my mind, to think about the good times, the fun, adventures, and happiness that people brought me as well.

So my question is " Should the bad times, no matter how severe outshine the good times? Is it possible to overcome those feelings of anger, hurt and betrayal?" Well with GOD's help I am trying, one of my new outlooks on life is that i don't have the time and energy to harbor these feeling anymore, i cant be exhausting myself feeling this way! These feelings kept me from going to church for awhile cause i felt like I didn't want to be a hypocrite going while I had hatred in my heart and the devil was telling me that I shouldn't go. So I am releasing all of these feelings out of me and I hope to never see them again! SO to all of those people who have hurt me I say to you all " I forgive you!... I don't necessarily wanna be friends with you, but I forgive you! Now when i see you the anger wont churn inside me , tearing me apart,makingme fellike I'm gonna explode, I just don't care anymore! You no longer have a hold on me or my life, I wont let you be a part of me any longer!"

Wow! I feel better already! :-) Sorry I got a bit sidetracked, I was writing about the good times and the great memories and all of the nostalgia of thinking about the best of times. I just wanted to take the time right now to thank each and everyone of you, my family and friends for: your love, support, and prayers for me over the years! If I never got the chance to tell you this ever again, I LOVE YOU and I am a better person BECAUSE I KNEW YOU (Well most of u anyways LOL, I'm just kidding) and if we were to never meet again on this earth I just would want you to know that, and I pray we will meet again in heaven.



OK, now that i got myself all teary, a quick update on the paperwork and tests. I have two different doctors right now that have put in for for my PET scan, so im waiting to hear from them about that. I'm gonna make some more calls today and gather more information on local organizations that might be able to help me with everything and I'm almost finished with the Medi-Cal paperwork and hope to turn it in tomorrow!
So until next time....
GOD Bless,
ADP

First a shout out to my friends who came tonight, thanks: Jamie, Kathy, Cheree, Bo, Donna, Bob and Janet, and dad. For those who canceled yet again, u know who you are!

So i went to this movie knowing not to much about the plot of the film, besides what you see on the trailer. I didn't look into this movie like i do others. I was hoping for a quirky, offbeat comedy. What I got was a slow, quirky sometimes comedic (but more situational comedy then actual funny parts). I really had few hopes fort this movie and it barely did that much.

Cont get me wrong, i chuckled a few times, a little belly laugh here or there, but this movie was extremely slow! The guy next to me was sleeping in his girlfriends lap, and four teenagers in front of me walked out of the movie two-thirds of the way thru the movie, and it was free.

Matt Damon's character is complicated and he was amusing, the one thing that kept me into the movie was thinking ahead and figuring out what was really going on. So if you like slow offbeat dramas that are two hours long, then see this film. if u need constant action or suspense to stay into a movie, then do not see this film!

As Always GOD Bless,
ADP

Ok, so im putting the date as the subject cause i just realized that all of my posts are dated April 17th, and i don't know why.
So I went to church last night and it was soo amazing to see my old friends and confidants the Wagner's! Thanks Noelle for being awesome as usual. I really enjoyed Chris sermon and after the service i went in for prayer and was anointed with oil and prayed over for healing. Its just the thing i needed to get back into the word of GOD and fellowship with HIM. GOD really spoke to me and I got some great ideas for poems and some key words that spoke to me. of Also it was great to see Ray and Karissa and their new addition to their family. CONGRATS u guys! I will add u guys getting a bigger house to my prayer list, but just don't move to far away.
Well today Ive got to be calling my doctors cause i cannot find all of my past medical paperwork. I'm also gonna be calling some cancer foundations to see if they can help me out with anything from getting treatment, help expediting my Medi-Cal application and even some Lymphoma support groups in the area.I have soo much to get done, its overwhelming, but im surprisingly keeping it all together( for now), i have too much to do to break down now, and i know i need to cry out and let these sea of emotions purge out of me, but im afraid if i do i will go into depressed and self pity mode and then i wont be of use to anyone especially me. So i have a lot to do. Ill try to blog later with another update. Please keep your prayers, and any suggestions or comments coming. They really are helping. So in the meantime Ill pray to stay in God's gentle hands.

GOD Bless,
ADP

PS- Picture of College Group trip to Six Flags Magic Mountain February 2003
I love and miss all of my old friends from the college group

Another Day..... Ok, so i woke up this morning with a headache & when i got out of bed i realized that i was hot, so i took my tempature an it was 100.9 which isn't good, cause i have read that fevers are associated with lymphoma, ill have 2 make a note of this and tell my doctor next time i see them.

Ok, so i didnt really get anything done yesterday cause a friend called and needed me so i was over there for most of the day, then 2 add on top of it, when i got there my key snapped in half trying to open the trunk of my car. So we had to call a AAA locksmith, thankfully it was part of the membership, otherwise him coming out and making me a key on the spot would have cost $150!

So today the plan is room cleaning and looking for all of the paperwork and reports from past doctors appointments, tests, and surgeries so i can be as accurate as possible on these applications. So all of that fun stuff to do today and them im excited, im going to church tonight and gonna see some old friends. I have missed some very dear friends since Ive stopped going 2 C.C.W.G. regularly.

I have a ton of calls to make tomorrow and more info to find out. I'm taking a very pro-active approach to my cancer research, looking into treatments, and gonna be calling different organizations and foundations to see how they can help me with getting treatment and help with all of the government red-tape. So I hope to have some new news to tell you all soon! Please if you know of anything that will help me out please comment and leave it posted here on my blog.

GOD Bless,
ADP

Well I have to get started on the cleaning and the finding. :-P

Well here is an update. I called the American Cancer Society last night and talked 2 them for over 2 hours. I asked tons of questions about treatments, side effect and all of that. They r also gonna be e-mailing me all the information they told me over he phone.
They also told me about local organizations that can possibly help me out with expediting my Medi-Cal application and others that might be able to help me get my tests done that i need asap.
So im a little bit more hopeful. I have a ton of information to collect and that i need 2 fill out these applications about my past medical history.
I'm somehow keeping it together, i haven't had a breakdown yet, i have 2 much too find out and too much to get done 2 have a breakdown right now. Thank you all soo much for your thoughts and prayers, please keep them coming and comment are always welcomes and very much appreciated.
Some updates coming soon to my blog: I'm going to be adding a music player that is going to have songs that are fun, inspirational, that make me happy and that inspire emotions. Some are sad, & some are fun, but i enjoy them all . Another new addition is that i going to be adding a place for some Bible Verses that i have found or that people have given to me that have really spoken to me during this time. Thank you all sooo much for caring and keep coming back and I'll do my best to keep you all updated.
GOD Bless,
ADP

As I look to the sky, I wonder, “What lies ahead of me?” Not knowing the future or what I should expect. “How much pain will I feel? What kind of pain will I put my family and friends through?”

I can’t help but to think, “Why is this happening to me? Did I do something to deserve this? Does anyone deserve this? Could I have done something to prevent this? Is this somehow my fault?”

I want to cry out to GOD, but does he hear me? He knows all, so what could this possibly accomplish? I don’t want to, but I feel hurt and betrayed by yet another set of trials and tribulations, the BIGGEST ONE of my life, that I have yet to face. I am praying that I can be strong and to trust him and to have tremendous faith.

As the sun sets on this chapter of my life, I can’t help but to think, “Will there be another chapter, a new beginning? Will the sun rise tomorrow and be brighter then ever? Will the air be crisper, the grass greener, the world a better place then it is today?” I can only have faith that it will be.

So I guess I’ll just have to wait, and look to the heavens and just hope to see that sliver of first daylight. “Will it ever come?? PLEASE COME!!!!”

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Photo taken tonight at 7:23pm from my cell phone

First of all i just want to thank and send a shout out to all my friends who were at the screening tonight and who showed me their love and support: Kira, Andrea, Sharyonda, Juliet, Brian, Bob and Janet. Now on with the movie review...
While whiteout had good effects and a very good subject I found it to be a bit predictable. I don't know, some people out there who aren't movie fanatics like me probably cant see the ending of movies or whats coming next, this movie was easy to figure out. I thought that the action and the scenery were great and it had some startling parts, but wasn't scary or that suspenseful. Overall i enjoyed it cause it is Kate Beckinsale and she rocks. 6 out of 10 for me.
In other news I ending up spending all afternoon at my doctors office and i didn't get all of my paperwork together to finish filling out my applications for Medi-Cal and Social Security, so if I'm lucky and work all morning tomorrow i can maybe turn it in tomorrow, otherwise i have all weekend to do it and then just turn it in on Monday. I have a ton of calls to make to gather information. Fun fun fun, i know (NOT!!!)
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Well i was at the doctors all this morning (my regular primary care physician)and it was just a basic check in with them, they haven't seen me since my diagnosis and wanted to talk to me and see where im at and what i know. So the bad news is that i don't qualify for the immediate coverage of Medi-Cal that i spoke of before,there is a very short lost of who does, so they wouldn't fill out that form for me.
But some slightly better news is that i talked to them and told them how it sounded like my oncologist was waiting for me to get approved on Medi-Cal to do the next step (which is a p.e.t. scan and bone marrow testing) and they said they they knew of a few places that do it and take MSI, so they have a call in to talk to the oncologist and they called the insurance company to ask for authorization for the p.e.t. scan. (From what i know the p.e.t. scan is where they inject your body with a particular kind of radioactive substance that goes thru your body and is attracted to cancerous cells and when they do the full body scan it lights up the area the cancer is and will tell them if its spread,or how large it is).
So now i have to go through my room and find all of the paperwork from the last two and a half years and on the forms i have to turn into Medi-Cal and social security i have to list every doctor that Ive seen, every treatment/surgery/procedure/test Ive done and their office locations, doctors names, phone numbers addresses and all of that. Its probably gonna take me a few days to gather up all of that information.
I just wanted to thank everybody who so promptly responded to my e-mail that i sent out,sorry if u didn't get it, that means i don't have your current e-mail address. thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers and please if u have any suggestions or tips or know of a place i can go or call for help please leave it in a comment on my blog. Or if u have a question that u want me to answer or something to address leave it as well, and as always...

GOD Bless,
ADP

So i was up today at 4:30am, showered and out the door by 6:15am and waiting for the doors to open. Was second in line but was about the 80th person called in to be interviewed (I know, i don't get it either!) I filled out my application in for medical coverage, but because im applying for disability insurance they cant approve me there on the spot. If i was knocked up, had fifteen kids, on Welfare or an illegal immigrant it would literally be easier for me to get approved! Sorry i needed to vent.
Anyways so my eligibility has to be determined by board certified doctors of the state of California, that can take some time,time is what i don't have, so in the meantime i got a form for my doctor to fill out and if i qualify under that then i can possibly get temporary coverage until my regular status is determined by the board. So Im praying that something happens soon cause i need to get these tests done asap so i can know truly what i am up against. I also checked into applying for Social Security Disability benefits, cause who knows what the workman's comp insurance company is gonna do when they find out about my "condition". Well thanks for reading, if u have any suggestions or questions please leave them. GOD BLESS
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WAITING.....
Sitting around waiting, waiting for something 2 happen. Anxious, nervous, stressed about the future. What will happen? Am i strong enough? Do i have What it takes? Why me GOD, why? What can i learn from this? Is this part of your bigger plan? Sick and tired of waiting, waiting 2 hear, waiting to see, waiting 2 know! But what can i do? I guess Ill just wait...
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My 9 movie Review Well I saw "9" 2night. Overall i liked it, the realism of the animation, the inventiveness of the world they made up, & just the original concept was amazing. It was a bit too dark 4 small children in my opinion. It could have been a bit better, but i Did enjoy it. Tim Burton rarely goes wrong, although he just produced it his touch is all over this film. The action and voice casting were excellent! If your a fan of his go c this film! PS This poster over to the right actually was a foreign poster from Italy that i liked, so i photo shopped it and took off all the foreign writing and messed with the color and voila!
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So I have to find a place to apply for Medi-Cal insurance asap, but i don't wanna do it at the social security office, cause i heard it takes all day and then u have to wait a month to get accepted. i don't have that kind of time. I think im gonna call the American Cancer Society since they have a 24 hour helpline. I have to go get blood tests sometime today. The oncologist want to check for blood diseases or other stuff that is associated with this type of lymphoma.
I am starting to get scared and nervous, not about the cancer per-se but just about the process and if im gonna get all of the tests done that i need now asap! I just want to know all of the details good or bad, not knowing the specifics like: What Stage is it at? Has it spread?and all of that. For now i just gotta focus on getting the insurance i need and the tests done that the oncologist wants to do.
On a some what good note im going to a special screening tonight of "9" the new Tim Burton animated movie, looks good and have been waiting to see this 4 awhile. I just gotta get going and do the stuff that needs to get done so i can go to see this 2night. Please if u have any suggestions or comments for me please leave them. Talk to you all later.
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Well i guess i should start with the main reason i started this blog. I HAVE CANCER! I know, are u as shocked as i am by reading that? LOL
Well just a few days ago i was told that i have Non-Hodgkins B-Cell Lymphoma with possible Burkitts Lymphoma. I don't have a lot of details as of now cause they have more tests to run, but i do know that i had three very enlarged lymph nodes in my groin that i discovered in March of this year. I didn't know what it was then, everybody thought it was a hernia due to my back injury,but when the finally got around to testing it, it wasn't. So then i had a few more tests done and they thought the three lumps were cysts or tumors, so i had a needle biopsy done about a month and a half ago and although we learned that they were lymph nodes the rest of the results were inconclusive. So i had to wait another month to have a full surgical biopsy where they removed the top and largest lymph node and thats how i was diagnosed.
The worst part is that im on workmans-comp cause of a very serious back injury that has had me out of work for over 2 years now, and i had to have 2 spinal surgeries & hardware drilled into my spine! Since im not working i cant afford private health care so im on MSI (a government assistance program for medical things) and my oncologist wants me to get treated at UCI Medical Center for my chemotherapy im gonna have to do, but guess what? They dont take MSI, so now i have to go apply for another form of assistance, Medi-Cal cause they take that,but its a long and complicated process with lots of paperwork that i need to fill out, and documents of my own that i need to find and collect. So here i am with cancer needing to get tested asap to find out some vital information about it and im stuck behind a wall of lines, forms and government formalities! So please keep me in prayer that i can find some way to be rushed thru the application process.
I will come on as much as possible to write everything out and please comment and ask questions and ill try to answer them the best that i can. I will b talking to you all soon!
GOD Bless,
ADP